That's all.

Injured my leg; but my left leg more - again.

The tshirt design so nice leh~

I heard its from Evon's group one.

:D

So, tomorrow is the girl guide's camp.. Held in school -.- I don't know whether to be excited or not.. But I'm quite la.. Think it would be fun.. Though I am not thrilled about sleeping in school, I think spending time with my friends will be fun. And sleeping away from my bed for one day would be fun. :P But im sure to miss my comfy bed! :) hahahaha!

Okay night bye :D

You said, "All I'm asking is for you to be patient with me." I know, baby, I know. I am trying.. But are you trying after I said, "All I'm asking is for you to hold me and make me feel loved"?

You can be so frustrating at times. You know you said you'll try to make it happen.. And then when I tell you, I'm going out with someone else on that day, you just say okay. What? Is it like, "YAY! I DONT HAVE TO GO OUT WITH YOU ANYMORE!!! :D:D:D:D" Or did you forget? Frankly, I don't think you forgot. You were wishing I forgot, weren't you? Well, I haven't. But after that, even I don't feel like it anymore.

My sister's coming back next week! :D YAY I MISS HER!

Although I know some of you nosy people want to read this because I'm going to complain a lot.

But first, I'm going to blog about what my relationship WAS like.

And I don't need none of your fucking judgments.

You better read this if you're one of the people judging me when you don't know what's going on right now between me and the ex.

This is going to be a pretty long post; and those of you who don't see the point of me blogging this, well let me tell you.

None of you have been there for me, except a few (countable with one hand), so I have to let it all out here.

It all started out really innocently. Back in Form 1, I was naive; I didn't know anything about relationships or heartbreaks. I thought I did, because at that time, I was only 13. And heartbreaks to me were like nothing because they weren't really heartbreaks. Until September 4th, we went bowling. He asked me, on like a friendly date with other people. After that day, we spoke to each other literally every day. After 2 weeks, my friends and I went for a movie. I asked if he wanted to come along and he actually arrived before me. It was September 19th; that day.. he made me so happy. He purposely bought separate seats for us; but I was shy. Li Qin wanted to take that seat with him but eventually we swapped, I forgot why. I remember we were watching Where Got Ghost?. It was his second time watching that movie, so he knew when the scary parts were coming. He kept scaring me by saying they were.

He said, "You might want to come closer now." Those words made me blush. I couldn't even think straight then. I did, he hugged me. And at that moment, I didn't want him to let go. Ever. It felt so right. That night, we were texting as usual. But we were being really sweet and all. He sent me a text asking, "So are we like together?" I replied saying that I wasn't sure. He then said fine and "proposed". But for some stupid reason, I told him to put it off until the next day. He said fine but I would have to be the one who "proposes" then. I still remember, the next day.. 20th September 2009, at about 11AM. :)

There started our journey of love. I don't care what you people think. I know it was love. I know how much he loved me and I know I reciprocated. After about 3 months of being together, we started fighting; because of typical reasons. People took bets that we wouldn't last 3 months together and some said it would last a long time. And so we went, fighting every time; but our love grew stronger each time we made up.

And then, I know I did bad things. I took almost all his time, and made him turn his back on his friends. You know I never meant for those things to happen, I know his friends hate me. And I am not surprised. He used to be so close to them, and when he was with me, he had to spend every moment with me. I am so, deeply, truly sorry. To him and to his friends.

Baby,

You've seen me at my worst, you've looked past all my flaws. I remember those times when you would wake up in the middle of the night just to make me feel alright, just to take care of me when I was having my cramps. Whatever it was that brought me down, you picked me up and helped me through it.

I vowed to myself I was going to marry you one day. Because everything we had, was just so special and so right. No one can say anything about it, because they're not me. I've been there and I've seen that. I've seen the way you took care of me. The way you loved me. The way you wrap your arms around me, pull me in for a quick kiss and everything's alright. I didn't care if people said relationships at my age (14 at that time) don't usually end up in marriages. But I believed.

Three months ago, we were together for 1 year and 6 months; we broke up due to some complications and miscommunication. And for those three months.. We texted like nothing happened; but claiming that we're not together. You kept telling me that we're going to get back together soon.. But it's been 3 months and that hasn't happened. My hopes are still high and I am still waiting.

But I could really see that, you loved me so much more back then. You do love me now, I know you love me a lot, but just not as much as before. The worst part is, I don't know how to rebuild our love. I try and try and try every day. I've tried everything & I hope you can do this with me. I hope you can cooperate with me to make our love stronger than ever.

I miss those days, baby. I miss them so much. They're nothing but memories now; as if engraved into stone and into my heart. But the part that I miss the most about our amazing relationship was you ♥ The way you could make me smile; how amazing it was when you just hugged me and didn't want to let me go.

I miss you so much, baby ♥

I still love you so much.